It’s been five days into the New Year and I am finally sitting down to write a new entry in my blog. I’ve been anticipating what I will write, because I feel like sometimes I have a lot to say, but will I really get everything going on in my head, down in the blog? That is the challenge for me. Some people have already committed to making their New Year’s resolutions, some people have already started and quit and there are others who feel that making a resolution, only to not commit to it, is a waste of time. This year I chose to not necessarily MAKE a resolution, but just DO what it is I have set in my mind, to live happier, healthier and fit. If I spend too much time thinking about it, planning, analyzing, researching, etc, I end up not even committing to anything. So this year, is the year that I stay on this journey, as long as it takes me, with as many obstacles that present themselves and not fall off course.
I thought first and foremost that I would place a reminder in this blog of where I started and how far I have come. Four years ago I started on this journey, to lose weight and get healthy. I was over 300 pounds and my doctor told me that I was pre-diabetic and needed to lose some weight before my blood work showed I was a diabetic That scared me into making a decision to change my eating habits and to get moving. The first 8 months of the journey I received help from a weight loss clinic to guide me towards making better choices when it came to food, and to exercise, but I limited myself to eating only certain foods and only walking. I reached a limit and realized I needed something else bigger than just me in my home doing cardio and eating the same menu every week. Once I found a gym and hired a trainer, I was well on my path to bigger and better things. Fast forward 14 months into my journey and I was down 120 lbs, and only 14 pounds away from my goal. I felt on top of the world. I was motivating others in fitness, and even training some other women who needed some guidance. I felt like I was in the best place possible and well on my way to reaching all of my health goals.
But here I am almost four years later and back on my journey and realizing so many other things I didn’t realize before that I needed to do to help me be more successful. I have been reunited with a support system that I was missing over the last 2 years and I found some new friends that have similar goals to live happier and healthier. I have incorporated some new fitness classes and learned some additional information about food and how it fuels my body. But the one thing I find myself fixated on, which I was fixated on before as well is the number on the scale. I want to see results, I want to see that all the sweat and hard work, paid off in that little magic number on the scale. But I was reminded, that we can measure our success in other ways as well. Here are just a few. Weight training, I’m getting stronger! Inches, I am losing inches, which is why my clothes fit looser, the swelling in my ankles used to swell pretty bad, but now it has lessened. Energy! I have a lot of energy now that I didn’t have prior to October. I am starting to see muscle tone in my arms and shoulders that were once there. The list goes on and on. I need to stop beating myself up about whether or not there is a loss on the scale and if the magic number is not what I hope it to be, that I analyze and go back through my week to understand why it is that way. I’m continuing to track my food in MyFitnessPal, which helps me be accountable and shows me days where I may have not chosen so wisely.
This next week I will do better at not reflecting what I see on the scale, but what I see overall in my body and my mind. I’m in a much better place than I was 3 months ago, and I know as I continue down this path, it only gets better. Weigh-in is tomorrow and it marks my 12 weeks back onto this journey. I’m excited to measure my inches as well to see how much I’ve lost, and I will report back on my progress. This is a journey, a long one, and one that I am willing to follow and appreciate, the good, the bad and everything in between.